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Well well…it’s actually been quite sometime every since I updated my blog. =P  Had been quite interesting for the past few months since after Valentine’s. In March, I had the opportunity to go China for company’s trip. Yoohoo!! It was far more fun than I had expected. I really enjoyed the sceneries in China. It was magnificient. Very relaxing too. And the temperature there was perfect (-4C to 20C). The trip was worthwhile. Thanks to all my colleagues whom had made it so fun. =)   But the trip that I’d been waiting for months wasnt the China trip. It was the cruise trip. The first ever trip with my bf. Hehe.. There were 10 of us. It was so fun! His friends were all funny & crazy people. Enjoyed being there with them. Couldnt imagine what the trip would be like without their wittiness. We went to Krabi, Phuket, Penang & Langkawi. It was enjoyable but I have to admit that I needed a holiday after this holiday. Hehe..After a week’s vacation in the cruise, whom would have the energy to work? I need to just warm up my engine first. The first few days at work was http://borneolady.blogs.friendster.com/.shared/image.html?/photos/uncategorized/cruising_to_krabi_phuket_154_1.jpg" onclick="window.open(this.href, ‘_blank’, ‘width=800,height=600,scrollbars=no,resizable=no,toolbar=no,directories=no,location=no,menubar=no,status=no,left=0,top=0′); return false"><img alt="Cruising_to_krabi_phuket_154_1" title="Cruising_to_krabi_phuket_154_1" src="http://borneolady.blogs.friendster.com/borneolady/images/cruising_to_krabi_phuket_154_1.jpg" width="100" height="75" border="0" style="float: left; margin: 0px 5px 5px 0px;" /></a>
unbearable..time seems to pass very slowly…

Then in the month of April, I had this company’s event in Port Dickson. It was quite enjoyable, though didnt get to meet my bf (hey we only see each other once a week & that is during the weekends). But he made a road trip with his friend all the way to PD just to have a glance of me. Hehe… or so-called ’spot check’ as my colleagues would put it. =P  Then few days after dat was my bro’s death anniversary - 26/4/06. Two years after that, the incident seems to be still fresh in my mind. I just couldnt help myself but to cry over it. No one would understand my feelings & what me & my parents had gone through.. My parents went over to Seh Kia Inh to pray my bro. I didnt make it there..How I still wish my bro is here…How i wish he would have come back one day to surprised us, saying he had been actually studying overseas all this while. How nice it would be then! But all this was because..of a jerk’s mistake which took my bro’s life away..damn big time bastard!! And now..everything changed ever since I lost TC..

On 1/5/08, I finally went to pray my bro. I remembered on that day the sky was cloudy. Could it be my bro still being upset too for leaving us unexpectedly? I ‘talked’ to TC, telling him that I wish so much he is still around. Telling him, I regretted for not treating him well when he was around. I told him, i still wanted to be his sister the next life. But could he listen? I told TC too, dat life wasnt the same without him. He seems to be the sunshine of the family. I really, really, really wish TC is still around. I wish I could cheer up my parents.

Initially I thought if I had a bf, at the very least it would add to the number in my family. And hopefully would make the loss lesser to my parents.. But it seems like, after hooking with someone, I’m busier than ever. It seems like I have no time for my parents. During weekends, I’ll normally spend time with my bf. If only, he can click with my parents, then everything would be fine. But it’s just not so him. Dont get me wrong, I’m not complaining abt my bf here. I was just saying, ‘if only…’ But my bf wasnt the kind of person. So I tried very much making time for them. I’ll make sure Sunday is a Family Day, Friday goes out for dinner with parents, etc.. I dont know if there’s anything else I could do. Some people tell me that I need to talk to my bf abt it. But..I just dont want to force him.Is there anything else I could do? Can anyone tell me? My parents arent young anymore. Their age is catching up. I dont want them to felt left out. That was why I wanna do so much for them..Can anyone tell me??

Sorry, this blog shouldnt turn into a complain place..I was just too engross with my own feelings. I guess this is just the updates abt me for the time being. As for June, i’ll be celebrating my bf’s birthday (yeay!! it’s the second time we celebrate his bday together) & by end of the month, I’ll be having company’s mid-year meeting. Haha..An eventful month ahead. =D Adios!! Have a nice time, people. Take care.. *HUGS*